Since my last blog, there have been many changes. I've moved into an apartment with my beloved and we're very happy. I honestly would never have imagined my present. about five years ago when my paruresis was at its worst, but here I am. I still have occasional paruretic attacks but can get through them fairly quickly. Part of the "treatment" is accepting it merely as part of who I am and not identifying myself in terms of the disorder. I have created a set of 3 x 5 cards as tools...each one with a positive thought. At work, I have in my cubicle a wall of empowering essays, articles, and sayings plus prayers. I have three pictures of the most influential people in my life: my sweetie, Cesar Milan (The Dog Whisperer) and our new President, Barack Obama. After seeing him during his candidacy and watching how he is grace under pressure when under attack, I feel he's a good person to want to emulate. My girlfriend doesn't do evil and I am emulating that part of her as best I can. I have also learned to be honest. Never be embarrassed because you have anxiety issues. I'll post another blog soon.
